I would like to share it with you. Upon arriving at the hospital, I was stabilized within twenty minutes of arrival. Everything looked good and they were getting ready to transfer me to Buffalo NY General, a cardiac hospital. As I was being transferred from the bed to the ambulance guerney my heart stopped for a lengthy period of time. They were able to shock me back to life using the paddles. Again I went into cardiac arrest and brought back a second time. I have no recollection of this happening but I am now known in St. Mary's Hospital in ER as "the miracle."
My physical life was totally dependent on Him. I had no strength to literally lift a finger. I cried out to Jesus and told Him that I had no strength and asked Him to be my strength in this dark hour, and He was. God impressed my spirit at this time very clearly: "This is how I want to you to live from this day forward, totally dependent on me. As you have no physical strength to lift your finger, you have no strength in yourself to live the Christian life...let My Life live through you. I am your strength and I am your life."
It's been six weeks since my heart attack and I hear these word in my spirit daily. I have been trying to figure out what to do and that usually gets me into "self." Pastor Wade Steelman's words spoke to me very clearly again, "Let me live through you, stop planning and figuring and let Me live."
I want to apply this and make it real in every area of my life. ...I am yielding myself to God to do what He pleases in me. I want to be sure that I am obedient to the Spirit's leading and not operate out of my flesh. Pray for me that I will not pull back and rationalize, but rather say, "Yes Lord, go ahead and I will follow."
Bill F.